Tuesday, March 30, 2010 @ 10:13 PM
jux wana said dat im sorie...i noe dat it was unfair to u...bt i jux hope dat we cn continue b fren like used of us...i felt dat we r suitable to b fren mor den couple...u noe...jux like mr nam hong said...we do not nid a best person...we jux nid a suitable person...mayb we r reli nt suitable for each other...hope u cn find ur miss right soon...jux wana said dat im hapii enuf to b wif u...dat was real...
recently felt emptiness in my life...im too free from anything...free from college life...free from work...free from any relationship...i hate tis kind of feeling...tried to find smtg to do...bt ther was ntg for me to do...i felt dat im a useless person...im jux nt worth to born into tis world...d world don nid me...who care if i don exist befor...i lost my pride...i lost my confident...i lost my dream...i lost my passion...i lost everything... >.< hahahahahahaha...at least i found my feeling bek...
Sunday, March 28, 2010 @ 10:40 PM
tried to tell d whole world dat im stil okie...bt in d end...i burst out...reli stressed out...n depressed...in d praise n worship...i reli cnt hold my feeling...i reli felt hopeless...y...i bliv dat God wil open a new exit for me if He close my old entrance...bt i reli cnt see any brightness in my future...at tis moment...i reli sked...i duwan start my life again...start from zero...tis is hard to me...
miss shanvon...i duno wether u hav c tis or nt...bt i wana tell u dat mayb we all ar d same...actuali im nt as lucky as u said...we both facing some problem...bt jux different problem for us to solve..bt bliv me...1 day...we cn gt our reward...jux mayb we hav to wait...>.<
to all my frens dat stil care for me...don find me in msn...don sms me...i reli jux wan to stay alone to think bout my future...i duwan to ans...or mayb i reli duno how to ans...wat im planning???wats my future???wat shuld i do for nex step???hw i noe.....i jux felt pressure when i heard those ques...no matter when...wher...or who dat ask me...i reli jux wana to stay alone for tis moment...i jux wana to lock myself in my own world...d world ar too realistic for me....i started to think dat if ther is no money...den every dream or passion wil b gone...
wana stop all tis as soon as possible.....
Thursday, March 25, 2010 @ 10:26 AM
i wil settle all d problems by 2day...i noe for me tis is a must...everything gona end soon...n ther wil b a new start for me...n all of u...i wont cry...i wont b regret...i noe tis is better for all of us...u all wil understand me soon...i jux wana apreciate d tym dat we being together...although was short...bt i noe dat was vr precious to me...keep in my heart foreva....^^
Wednesday, March 24, 2010 @ 5:07 PM
jux cum bek from college..or shuld i say starbucks...hmmm...finish discuss our presentation...n i luv my new group members....yup...miss charlene n miss shin ya...miss elaine n miss wyee aso...we cn form a great team...gambatek...^^
btw...izit anything wrong hapen on u...bliv me...i reli jux wana to care bout u...if u reli think dat u shuld do like dat...den go ahead...i wil nt stopping u...if u feel u r hapii den enuf...i hav ntg to say much...mayb we cn jux stop everythings as u wish...yes...if u clever enuf u wil noe im saying bout u...yes...IS YOU!!!
~today, tomorrow, and forever. Can it reli last??~
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 11:07 PM
stil continue-ing on my journal...congratz to me...hahahahahaha...haven reach half page yet...i think i reli gona die...hw to write wor...supose i write in d course description n course outcome too...n dat course requirement...stupid me...i nid some guidelines....
btw i gt d presentation topics d...we nid to survey on light rum...Argentina wine...bitter beer...flavoured tea...cappuccino n emmental cheese...hmmm...some unknown items to me...kinda rare....haix...tmr stil nid to decide on wat kind of mocktail shuld we present n wat kind of flower arrangement shuld we design....starting to headache again...i hate doing proposal..although i alway done all kind of proposals in church...5W1H...haix...nw i think i reli gona to faint...i reli duwan to bother bout all dat stupid ques d...i hav no tym to do so...i hav mor inportant things for me to settle....
miss joyce...thx for ur caring...bt i reli duwan to think for it right nw...bt i promise i wil settle it as soon as possible...^^
@ 4:46 PM
kinda tired of my life...too many problems...famili...frens...even ...haix...no matter hw i pray...i stil din gt d ans yet...mayb i reli nid to wait for duno hw many million years den it wil finali be settle...cheer up...all ppl keep repeating tis word to me...erm...bt i think im stil okie wor...reli din sad la...jux a bit tired...wana to find a place n jux slp for anoter million years...duwan to bother all d incidents or problems....
btw...miss susie wan us to write a journal...bout 2 pages long...izit possible...bla bla bla again...somor all d presentations...my college life started again...>.< gud luck to me...
Monday, March 22, 2010 @ 11:22 PM
izit reli cn settle in ez way....i hope so...
@ 9:11 PM
tek my result 2day...although i adi noe my result few days ago...>.< hmmmm...jux noe dat miss asilah was my mentor...haiyo..i don nid a mentor la...i noe i cn do it well if i mor hard working...don talk so muc in class...n pay mor attention in class...den i sure cn pass wif flying color d la...bt luckily i stil cn tek up 4 subj...dat mean i nid to drop onli 2 subj n nid to retake 1 subj...jux like dat..actuali aso okie la...at least i wont b so pressure on my studies...
a lot of thing stil on my mind...too many pressure...i think my head wil b explode 1 day...hahahahahahaha...i think i wil listen to my dad...mayb he was right...i reli din stand on their place n think...i jux thought on myself onli...yup...i noe im wrong...sorri dad...although u duno...bt i wil b a gud gal...i wil b mor mature...i wont let u down... = )
i stil nid to talk to u...miss chu chin...haix...i think i wil never do it correctly....
@ 1:25 PM
they said im over reaction...they said it was jux a game...they said i should'nt hav such feeling...izit??? i aso duno wat had hapening on me...i aso had tried to accept...bt i cant...izit u all ar so abnormal??? or onli me dat so weird???
thinking a lot tis 2 days...thinking bout my decisions...my choices...my future...thinking dat izit im doing right thing on a particular incident...thinking on some serious problems...im reli sked of my thinking...when im thinking deeply...i found dat d ans is nearer to my head...when i noe d ans...i noe i had done smtg wrong in my life...wat supose cn i do??? jux like miss chu chin said...i hav onli 2 ways...1 is accept it...anoter is face it...mayb u wil think dat those 2 ar jux d same...bt i noe it was different...way toooooo different...
Friday, March 19, 2010 @ 6:39 PM
so unbelivable...y tis wil hapen on me...i think supose is bcz im nt hard working enuf barh...i noe it was smtg fishy when i recif d letter from d posman...it is for my dad from disted college...thx god i open d letter n checked it out...oh my gosh...PROBATION 1 la....i hate fnb management la....y i wil gt a F in dat stupid subj...haix....den hw arh...nex sem nid to drop 3 subj lur...since i onli cn tek onli 12 credit hour...haix....i reli hate dat...i promise myself i wont repeat it again...or else my parent wil so blabber beside my ears whole day long...oh my gosh...
Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 6:55 PM
so unbelivable...they din giv me d correct amount...haix...stil nid to wait somor d lur...haiyo...I HATE DAT...seem adi hapen d...so i must b nt spending a lot d...save mor is better...>.<
ltr wil go out wif my sista miss tan seok peng...so long tym din hang out wif her d...erm...jux tis tym wil hav 2 mor lovely guyz accompany us...i bliv we wil hav a lot of fun tym together...^^ YEAH!!!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 @ 9:42 AM
ytd went out wif my sista...played till vr late...argggghhh...bt yet i stil wek up at 9.30am...seem like cnt slp d...haix...ltr i wana tek a nap befor going to work...abo i sure wil slp at work place...
talked bout ytd...we went to red box..hmmmm..met tiok our secondary classmate...kinda miz dat secondary life...hahahahaha...n i stepped bek to dat stupid beach again...'Sunset Beach'...all things started from ther....d sand...d path...d sea...d ppl....haix....btw...miss xiaoqii...jux being urself...dat stupid mask is nt suitable to wear so long tym...^^
i luv to talked to u...no matter when izit...i felt dat is so comfort...ther was no any pressure...i luv dat feel...i gotta a feeling ~ ~ ~ <3
Monday, March 15, 2010 @ 7:28 PM
hapii bufday to my 'him'...hehehehe...okie la...1st tym...i will write out ur full name here..mr ng kok heng...hapii bufday ya...old 1 year d...reli old d liao...wish u hapii foreva....
erm...tis few days i reli gt many shocked...haix...i think somday i wil die bcz of heart attack...nvm la..at least i had being so hapii n sweet b4 i die...hahahahaha...
nex thing i wana said is im so glad dat our miss jessrine will cum bek continue her studi in disted...yeah...6 of us...recruit bek like used of us..hope dat she wil b mature n don repeat d same mistek again...wish u all d best..
finali is my sista...somtym we reli had to bang to d wall...or we had to gt hurt...or mayb we had to bcum injury den we cn mek a correct decision...i reli proud of u dat u stil cn stand up afta all tis incident dat hapen...u cn find a better 1...serious...^^ p/s: NO CLUBBING!!!
Friday, March 12, 2010 @ 11:16 PM
jux cum bek from gurney..watched 'Alice in d Wonderland' wif my sista...nt so nice actuali..no nid to put high expectation on it...hmmm...i wil gt my salary in 2 days mor...hahahahahaha...hard to wait...
Thursday, March 11, 2010 @ 11:25 PM
finali i noe wat to buy d...hehehehe...actuali buy a thing is nt my profession...sumor nid to buy a bufday present...huiyo...bt finali settle adi..>.<
jux nw i found out actuali they all ar d same...jux felt a bit dissapointed...i thought thay wil nt d same...bt in d end...hmmmm...quite unexpected...too bad...
feel like wana go cut my hair...kinda miz my fringe...^^
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 @ 10:55 AM
ytd went out to gp wif my sista, miss xiaoqii n miss sin mun...hehehe...quite enjoyable...hard to find a day dat cn go out til late mah...bt too bad miss wyee cnt join us..p/s: go mek a new keys for urself...abo u wil trap in ur hse if any accident occur!!!
btw sombodi ask me no nid to miz him..bt somtym i reli miz u a lot..felt a bit weird when d phone reli din rang for so long tym...felt weird when din recif a single message from u...bt nvm la..i noe u r bz..hehe..or mayb i jux use d tym to slp...tis few day i vr guai leh..i gt eat my breakfast..n diner too...of cz although in a little amount..bt stil i gt eat k..wont b gastric..DON WORRI...hahaha..
to my parent
Monday, March 8, 2010 @ 4:14 PM
im sorie dat im jux walk away ytd nite...im sorie dat im so rude to both of u ytd nite...i jux felt dat was reli unfair to me..dats it..ntg else...i noe dat were stil both of ur decisions...as long as both of u hapii..im done..ntg to say much...even when im nt satisfy..wat cn i do?? wat cn i said?? ntg mor...ntg else...
Sunday, March 7, 2010 @ 5:14 PM
my fren miss tee lin told me smtg...izit reli true...i bliv in other ppl's eye..they wil c d truth...hmmm...izit reli wil hapen afta u gt smtg u wan..den u wont care anymor...
nvm...talk bek 2day i went to tea gallery wif my cg fren...enjoy old life erlier..hahaha...we learn hw to mek a tea set in proper way...jux same like red wine...is reli interesting...i think i wil like it...
nex i join miss seok peng n miss chu chin to dance...hahahaha...it reli fun n excited...i kinda luv dat feel...jux jump here n there...stretching here n there...afta bek hum...wana hav a nice bath n slp...
duwan care d...
OUTING
Thursday, March 4, 2010 @ 10:32 PM
tmr wil going out wif my sista...yeah..hardly wait for tmr..i adi stay at home for duno hw many days d...almost fulled of spider web...hmm...
Wednesday, March 3, 2010 @ 12:00 AM
finali i realize dat somtym we wil done a lot of stupid thing for d 1 we care...jux like our parent wil sacrified themselve for us...our frens wil stand for us when we facing problems...we wil do wateva things for our luv 1..no matter it is correct or nt...2day..i reli had gone through a tough tym...afta so many hours...i think both of us had done wrong...bt we jux bcum blind becoz of luv n care...hmmmm...u r right..mr pierre loh...hahahaha...
btw thx for evr moment dat u stay beside me when dat incident had occur...although u duno wat had hapen bt u stil listen to me wheneva i jux wan to shout...i reli duno wat to do if u r nt at my side...mayb i wil reli go..u noe la...my plan...hehehehe...thx for ur advises...thx for ur caring...seriously ur msg reli had touch me...thx...i luv u...mr T...
Tuesday, March 2, 2010 @ 10:57 AM
thx for evr thing ji mui...miss tan chyi chyn...i heard dat u r d 1st wan dat stand out for me...miss wyee loo n miss aw shan von...n other frens too...i noe u all are care for me...wana stand for me...duwan me to get hurt...i reli apreciate wat u all had done to me...thx...i think afta all tis incident...i had finali noe d truth...i reli had wek up...seriously...hahahahaha...no mor tears for michelle...
as for sombodi dat so nonsense...hmmm...SO WAT....i don care wat u r tried to post on my fb wall...jux wana to warn u dat don b so coward...if u wana to post..jux post it out...don delete it...let evrbody noe u r such a jerk...u r jux bastard...or mayb u r jx ntg... don think afta u delete all d post u r free from anything...God is watching when u r doing smtg....
Monday, March 1, 2010 @ 1:01 PM
actuali im stil feeling bad...hmmmm...miss wyee loo...wher ar u...miss aw shan von...u ar dissapearing too...y d earth ppl so like to dissapearing themselves...i nid u guys.....